so i actually feel totally embarassed by that previous post. but im gonna leave it there anyway because thatll teach me to say what's on my mind!

but seriously. im embarassed because the topic is about my creative efforts and that shits personal and few things burn more than when you lay something out and its shit for all to see. more turds to come.

but now i wonder if im not trying to talk it down because i think its shit and its not or im just afraid that it is when i secretly hope that its flippin awesome, but am scared white over possible criticism. that sounds more accurate.ah well.

dear future self: fuck you.